It's been a looong time since I've written on this darn thing, but I actually have a good excuse!! I work seven days a week, now, and I go to school five days a week. I've been keeping pretty busy, but there hasn't really been anything interesting going on to write about. And nobody is really interested in what goes on at work or school...it's pretty boring stuff, to be honest :/
I used to use this blog as a way to get the thoughts in my head into words, but to be honest, I've been having a really hard time doing that lately. Maybe it's because there are too many words in there flying around and I can't make sense of them. Or maybe it's just because I'm lazy :P Whatever the reason, here I am again, trying to figure out exactly what to say and how to say it.
Like I said, not much has been going on except school and work. I work at the 99 now as a hostess. It's definitely MUCH more stressful than I expected, and there have been a couple of nights when I just come home and cry myself into a little puddle on the floor. I was told by some of my coworkers there that a lot of the newer employees quit because they couldn't handle the stress. But I need this job, and I'm determined to stick it out until I'm comfortable. I don't wanna give up on this...
I guess the biggest thing that's happened lately is Kalen moving to Montana. I don't really know how to describe how I feel about it. I have to be honest, saying goodbye to her was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I know, I know...she's not dead or anything, and this is a good thing for her! Trust me, I understand that...and I really am happy for her! I knew it was a good thing for her the day she first told me about the job opportunity back when she was still in school. Yeah, the thought scared me, but deep down I knew it was what was best for her...
I'm happy for her, I promise.
But there are some days when it really hits me how far away she is. I haven't been this far away from her (permanently) since the day I was born. We've had our ups and downs like every sister has, but she's been one of my best friends for forever, and somehow having her move that far away is kind of like losing a piece of myself. Some days are harder than others...today was one of those harder days.
This is where Andrea comes in.
I've worked at Burlington Coat Factory for a little over a year now, and I'm pretty good friends with most of the other people that work there. I have a different kind of relationship with all of them, but one of my best friends there is definitely Andrea. She's one of the older women that works in sportswear, and she's there almost EVERY time I work. I love it!
Something I really love about Andrea is the fact that she always asks about Kalen. She was one of the first people I talked to when I found out that Kalen was getting the job. I told everybody at the job about it, but Andrea has been the only one to check in since she's been gone...she asks just about once every week.
Of course, every day is different. I understand that Kalen is busy a lot...and that's a good thing! She's doing what she went out there to do. I don't hear from her as often as maybe I'd like to, so I don't always have an answer for Andrea. But the fact that she asks always makes me happy :)
Since I moved to Haverhill a little over a year ago, I've been in and out of school and work, meeting people and making new friendships. Some of those friendships have lasted, and some haven't. There are a lot of days when I feel really lonely...like I don't have any friends to hang out with and talk to. But today, after a really good talk with Andrea, I realized that I really do have friends that care, and are willing to talk to me on a personal level, and not just a professional level. I might not have the time I'd like to go out and hang out, but it's nice to know that there are people who will take time at work just to ask how I am about stuff they know is important to me.
All that to say, Andrea is a really great person, and I'm really glad I have her as a coworker...even if neither one of us likes our job that much :P
On another positive note, I aced my first Entrepreneurship test tonight. WOOHOO!! Happy me! Hopefully the tests that follow will end just as well :D School is definitely intense this semester, but I'm pretty sure with a little positive thinking and determination, I'll be able to handle it.
After all, I AM a superhero ;)
