Sooo...I have a TON of stuff to do today...and I should probably be doing it right now. But I decided to take a minute and write a post because.............
Today is November 5th.
I feel like I'm the only one who remembers November 5th...and I think I'm ok with that. I'm the only one who should remember, I guess. It was MY day, in a weird, depressing sort of way, and I didn't expect it to be remembered. I just wanted to remind myself of how things were, and how they are now. SO much has changed..SOOO much. The optimistic part of me can look back and see how much improvement there's been. But the pessimistic side of me really feels like there hasn't been any progress at all. I'm trying to pick a side...and it's harder than I thought it would be.
I really should lean towards the optimistic side...because there are so many things I can look at and be happy about! I had a FANTASTIC weekend with my boyfriend...and I couldn't have asked for a better guy. I'm very lucky :) I finally quit my other job, which could be looked at as a bad thing, but on the plus side, I'm less stressed about work, and I have a job that's getting me more money. I'm also looking at getting into an internship program in the Spring! But it's not for sure yet, so shhhhh! I'm just trying to stay positive ;)
It's so strange how one day can really affect the rest of your life. It doesn't feel like two years ago, to be honest. The feelings are still familiar, the images are TOO clear in my mind, and I still have to wonder if I'd do everything the same if I had a second chance to live that day. I guess I'll never know.
I guess that's all I have to say. I thought I'd have more to say about today...it's a big day. But in a way, it's really not. It's just another normal day....right?? I wish it was that easy.
I started this blog on November 5th last year, and I guess I stuck to my purpose. I kinda slacked a little in my posts, but I feel like the point of it stayed the same. I supposed my November 5th resolution this year is just to keep on keeping on. Even on the days when I still feel like I did two years ago, I just need to look at the positive side of life, and realize that I'm not where I was anymore. It's not easy, but it's necessary.
Life goes on...
