Thanksgiving :)

Well, another Thanksgiving has successfully come and gone :) I hope everyone had a great time with their families...I certainly did! This year my family picked me up and we all went over to my aunt and uncle's house in Boston. It was a pretty small crowd this year...well, smaller than usual. I wouldn't call anything having to do with my family small...we're quite a bunch! :P

As an added bonus, there was a Jets vs. Patriots football game tonight! Half my family are Jets fans and half are Patriots fans, so it makes for a pretty loud and exciting game :) But tonight it was kind of a boring game...the Patriots pretty much crushed the Jets, so it wasn't a huge deal. I was too busy upstairs, however, watching stupid youtube videos with a few of my other sisters. I have to say, I haven't laughed that hard in a really long time! It was especially special being able to spend the time with them, too :) Those kids mean the world to me <3

The ride home was hilarious. It was just about midnight by the time we finally got to my apartment. I hopped out of the van and waved goodbye to all of them before climbing the steps to my apartment. It wasn't until I went in and closed the door behind me when I realized...

I was all alone.

At the end of the day, I have to face the reality that I live all by myself and the fun and games are all over. To be honest, it makes me pretty sad. I'm trying to keep a positive attitude, however, and just be thankful (SUPER THANKFUL!) that I was able to spend the day with them today. It meant soooo much to me to spend a holiday with them. Holidays are really, REALLY important to me, for some reason. They just...ach...mean soooooo much! Lol...I'm a kid, I know :P But I really feel like holidays are when families can be together and just...enjoy each other, no matter what the situation are. During the holidays, and especially when I'm with my family, I really feel like I can forget all my problems and just....be happy.

Well....I used to feel that way. I still want to, but unfortunately, my past mistakes have made the holidays really tough for me to enjoy :/ I'm constantly faced with the consequences of the choices I made a year ago, and it kills me.

Sometimes life is compared to writing a book. But in my opinion, that's the word comparison you could ever come up with. When you're writing a book, you have the choice to go back and change a few words or paragraphs...maybe even a whole chapter. When you're living life, you don't have that option. You can't go back and change those few words that you said. You can't change what you've done. You just have to live with it.

Have any of you ever used Google Docs?? Well, you should...it's amazing! I've been using it a little with a good friend of mine who's writing a book. She shares the page with me, and we can both be reading it at the same time. The cool thing is, we can also both write at the same time! So while she's writing, I can go back and recheck her grammar or spelling or stuff like that. It's pretty cool!

Wouldn't it be nice if life was like Google Docs? I mean, you could share your life with God and he could just follow behind you, fixing your mistakes and touching a few things up. He could give you suggestions, throw in a little advice, and even tip you off about the ending! If only it was that easy, right?

*sigh* if only...

Instead, we're living life the same way I wrote  my essay during my midterm in Lit class this year...in pen and without going back to change anything. It was stupid, I know, but that's how I write! And guess what? I got a A on the paper, so HA! If only I was as successful in life as I was at that paper :/

What I'm trying to say is...life is full of second chances, but nothing we can do will erase what happened in the past. No matter what I do, I can't make holidays go back to what they were. There will always be a little reminder in the back of my mind why the holidays aren't as great as they used to be. But if I sit around and fuss about it, there won't be ANYTHING good about them! I've been given another chance to make holidays great again, and I'm not going to pass that up! I need the holidays, I really do. I need Easter. I need July 4th. I need Thanksgiving. I need Christmas. I need them all. I need them because those are the times when everyone is happy, and I feed off of that! I want to be happy so bad that I want to surround myself with happy people....the people I love most. That's what holidays are all about for me, and that's what I want for the rest of my life.

I didn't get as many pictures at Thanksgiving this year because I was too busy being crazy with the girls :P But here are a few that I liked :)

My family pretty much rocks :) I hope everyone had a FANTASTIC Thanksgiving this year :) The countdown for Christmas can officially start now :D

It's 1:58 in the morning, so I suppose people are out Black Friday shopping...lucky little buggers :P I don't have work until 11, so I have a few hours to sleep before I have to be up and ready to go! Bring it on....