Contrary to popular belief, I have NOT dropped off the face of the earth! After Christmas, life just picked up like a snowball rolling down a hill and I haven't been had much time to just sit down and write something interesting :P Of course, who says ANYTHING I write is interesting, right? I write for the pleasure of writing...and since there's a crazy snowstorm raging outside, I figured it was a good time to just give this blog another shot :)
Hmmm...I feel like a should do an update on what's been going on, but to be honest, I've been living in such a whirlwind that I don't even know where to start! Well..in a nutshell, I've been working, schooling, planning, cleaning, and trying to just keep my head above water with all this homework that I have! I'm taking psychology this semester, and I'm not enjoying it as much as I thought I would. It's hard stuff, that's for sure, and it doesn't help that I have a crackpot teacher. He's great, but he's a crackpot :P What else could one expect from a psych teacher, though, yeah?
Anyways, psych homework is pretty demanding, but not NEARLY as demanding as my piano homework! Oh. My. Gosh. If you guys could just SEE the pieces that I'm supposed to be learning :S It might not seem difficult for some people, but my professor is pushing me to cultivate skills that I had NO idea even existed in me! Let's just say...three hours a day of practice is the minimum for learning these songs. Yeah, it's a lot, but I really don't mind that much. Music is like therapy for me, so it's kind of what's been keeping me going...and I'm good with that :)
Also along the lines of piano, I'm tutoring beginner piano and I'm LOVING it!! Seriously...it's like a dream come true. I've always thought teaching music would be great, and it's just as awesome as I always imagined it would be! I love all my students, even though some of them are just dummies :S It's been soooo great! I've actually been looking for different paths to go down in music, and I've been having a hard time choosing which one. I had three options...Music 1) performance 2) education 3) therapy. I started out wanting to do performance, but it switched to education, and even more recently, I've decided that I would love to get into music therapy. Honestly...look it up. It's a fantastic field and...
well...
let's not get me started. I get really fired up about music nowadays. The lack of respect for music is very frustrating for me...to see young people throw their lives down the drain, and a lot of it has to do with the kind of music they're listening to! I'm soooo thankful that my mom brought me up on a WIDE range of music..including classical. It's saved my life :) THANKS MOM!! <3
I suppose the most life changing thing that's happened in my life lately is the fact that my birth father came home from Italy a few weeks ago. I haven't seen him in 15, and all of a sudden, he's living 15 minutes away from me. I'm dong ok, though, surprisingly. I thought I'd be much more shaken up over it, but I'm good...it's all good. I haven't met him yet, and I'm not sure I'm ready to. Of course, my grampa talks to him every day, and he's constantly getting updates on EVERYTHING that I'm doing! Kinda weird :S
We've had minimal contact, actually, and for now, I'm completely ok with that. I don't mind talking about it, but I'm really not ready to face the guy that abandoned me and my mom and my sister 15 years ago...it's just...not cool. However, there is some curiosity...there's another artist in the house now, and now I'm more inspired than ever to start getting better at drawing and stuff. The other day he was downstairs with my grampa, and I guess they were talking about my drawings. My grampa came upstairs and brought down my most recent one, and they chatted about it. Just today, I was downstairs in the basement and I happened to look over at his desk where all his art stuff is set up. On the table, he'd written, "study anatomy" in pencil. I had the feeling that he'd left the note for me, so I wrote on a piece of paper, "okey dokey :)" and left it for him to see next time he's here.
Was all that information necessary? Of course not. You don't care. But it's actually good for me to actually be talking about it. My struggle in life has always been bottling in my feelings and thoughts. In the long run, it's proved to be dangerous and not good for me. As an artsy person, I have a lot of feelings and emotions that I need to deal with. I can't help it. I've never been good at dealing with them, but I'm making an effort to get in tune with them now and deal with them in a good way. Writing (however bad it is :S ) is a good way, along with music, drawing, and making strange crafts :P
Anyways...it's pretty late now, and I have work tomorrow. I'm going to try and keep up with this more now...we'll see what happens :P
Peace out, babies!!
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